]Fast forward to the last week of a September my girl started losing tons of weight even though she was eating like a maniac. We took her to the vet concerned that the steroid could have done some damage when I looked up her symptoms diabetes/kidney/liver disease or cancer was what my options were. The vet did labs which showed elevated kidney and liver enzymes so he proceeded w an ultrasound. Ultrasound showed she had lesions on her liver and her kidneys. Vets option at that point was as long as she wa still eating and drinking to let her be and enjoy the time we had left we her. Unfortunately we had no idea that we only had two more weeks
My little angel passed away in my arms on Nov 12 and I am literally shattered . I can’t stop crying and the thought of being in my house just makes my anxiety through the roof. So I guess why I’m here now is
1. To be able to write out my feelings without judgement or not being able to get the words out
2. To find out what do I do now
If you have been through this and have found things that worked for you other than getting a new dog please share. I don’t think I can do this long term I know tome helps make it easier but I do still have to make it through an 8 hr work day with out bawling my eyes out every 5 secs.
3. Any good books to read
4. Audiobooks
5 websites?
6. At this point I am willing to try anything other than drugs and alcohol
Thank you everyone in advance I appreciate any advice
Ps. I have already reached out to my therapist but not sure how much she is gonna be helpful